Our honeymoon was beautiful, a cruise to Key West, Cozumel and Belize. The weather was just getting cold in Tennessee so it was amazing to suddenly arrive at the beach. I was a size two and bought the cutest little black dress in Key West for $200, almost as expensive as my wedding gown! We went snorkeling, swimming, shopping, and there was so much great food. The first and only vacation for just the two of us.
A few weeks later, I started to feel a constant yuckiness. I kept saying that I didn't feel bad enough to go home sick, I just didn't feel good. My co-workers assumed I was pregnant even before the idea crossed my mind. We got pregnant on our honeymoon, how crazy and exciting that was!
At our nine week appointment, however, we received the devastating news that the little peanut didn't make it. The miscarriage was tough, but somewhere deep down we felt that was how things were supposed to be. Kyle took me to a concert for my birthday to help me forget about how awful that week was, and it worked (I had been begging to go to that concert for months). Christmas and the New Year came and went and I was still feeling pretty sick, this time my mom asked me if I was pregnant. Inconceivable, I thought. I just had a miscarriage, I hadn't even had my first cycle since then... how could I possibly be pregnant already. That is when I hit up Google. Hello?! No one ever told me it was EASIER to conceive after a miscarriage! The doctor told us to wait at least four months before trying again, but we were already back in his office a month later. Before we knew it everything was rainbows and butterflies again.
At our nine week appointment, however, we received the devastating news that the little peanut didn't make it. The miscarriage was tough, but somewhere deep down we felt that was how things were supposed to be. Kyle took me to a concert for my birthday to help me forget about how awful that week was, and it worked (I had been begging to go to that concert for months). Christmas and the New Year came and went and I was still feeling pretty sick, this time my mom asked me if I was pregnant. Inconceivable, I thought. I just had a miscarriage, I hadn't even had my first cycle since then... how could I possibly be pregnant already. That is when I hit up Google. Hello?! No one ever told me it was EASIER to conceive after a miscarriage! The doctor told us to wait at least four months before trying again, but we were already back in his office a month later. Before we knew it everything was rainbows and butterflies again.
Kyle was home for the entire pregnancy through chocolate cake and cookies, we both gained like 60 lbs but it was worth it. Luckily, he didn't have to deploy until two weeks after the little guy was born, such a blessing. I know other Army wives have the added stress of wondering if their hubby would make it home in time for the birth, but Kyle was able to just deploy a little later than the rest of his team. I was so grateful that he was here, he had the strength and confidence that I just didn't have. Being a mommy was more like learning to ride a bike for me... but for Kyle, haha, becoming a daddy was like eating... just so natural.
The deployment was hard as a working mommy... daycare, frozen dinners, sleepless nights... but with generous help from family and friends, we made it through.
The deployment was hard as a working mommy... daycare, frozen dinners, sleepless nights... but with generous help from family and friends, we made it through.
It is like we blinked our eyes and it is one year later. The little guy is already walking. Kyle has been home for all the big milestones- eating solids, crawling, walking- and he is enjoying every minute of it. He is such a wonderful daddy.
Now here I sit, staring at two pink lines all over again. What a crazy adventure! I guess it is going to be awhile until I can fit back into that cute black dress.
Now here I sit, staring at two pink lines all over again. What a crazy adventure! I guess it is going to be awhile until I can fit back into that cute black dress.
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